Monday, August 1, 2011

Dear Blog,

I originally started you because it was my first winter at home with 6 kids.  I had spent the previous 2 years staying busy with my teaching career.   I have to admit, going from 3 to 6 children was (and still is some days) a shock to my system.  In the dead of winter I started having a hard time finding the good in each monotonous day filled with cooking, cleaning up messes, cooking again, cleaning up again, entertaining, watching, teaching,helping and disciplining children, trying to keep my house clean, repeating myself over and over and just plain being cooped in through a long cold winter.  It was driving me crazy.

I wanted to use you, dear blog,  as a catalyst to look for the good, positive things each day, and it has served its purpose, for nearly 6 months now.  However, now posting every day has become more of a chore than fun, so I am happy to say that I am moving on to a new chapter.  That chapter is going to create a new and improved me.  Through this period of adjustment and change, I have learned that in the process of trying to be the perfect “supermom” of 6, I have become exhausted, cranky, tired, boring, stressed, and unhealthy because my life is totally out of balance.  The turning point was going to the dentist this summer.  Even though I go every 6 months, since I had been last, he had noticed my worn away teeth.  I had started grinding my teeth in my sleep as a result of stress which resulted in waking up with daily headaches and still feeling exhausted, even after a full-night’s sleep.  

So…I am going to try to seek balance emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually.  I am going to take care of my body by eating well and taking the time to exercise.  I am going to make time to hang out with friends and neighbors.  I am going to learn some new things and find some new hobbies, and I am going to make scripture study a priority.  I am going to get a babysitter when I feel overwhelmed.  I am going to wear the cute clothes and jewelry I already own and not sweats and t-shirts.  I am going to put makeup on every day.  I think I will be an even better mom and wife if I learn who I am, feel good and love life again.  I’ll keep you posted on my progress.

Please don’t feel abandoned.  I am still going to post and share, just not every day.




Krysta said...

Good for you!!! You sound like me, or how I feel anyway. I've been there before and it's not worth it. Have you noticed that my posts are few and far between? You have to take care if do I. Thanks for the reminder. Why does balance always have to be such a hard thing? I swear, it is satans tool to use on mothers. Sadly, it works :( I miss you!!! Hang in there. Call me anytime.

Teacher Lori said...

Love you Kari!